9 Be miserable, and mourn, and weep; let your laughter be turned into mourning, and your joy into gloom. 10 Humble yourselves in the presence of the Lord, and He will exalt you.
This Bible passage may seem puzzling to many and even to me, when I first read it. Asking myself and looking at my past, when I was in mourning or my eyes were full of tears, it never felt like such something to look forward to. A few occasions if I remember crying like a baby. Many times in school I would have my head on my desk crying for a girl who said “no, I will not be your girlfriend” The time after my father died, I cried when I realized he was gone and my daddy was gone. When I lost Crystal as my girlfriend I felt my world felt even more apart. Then I joined the church and like I said in my other blogs I began teaching in a small group Bible study. My first topic I took on was the 10 commandments of God and I study each commandment, I realize that in those laws, the Lord told me I was loved. So one night in Bible study, I must have felt the touch of the Holy Spirit and I said to the group and myself.The God according to the apostle Paul ‘s leads one to sorrow, but that is not bad. If a person is staying happy in a world of sin, then that happiness leads to the sorrow of death. That even is the sorrowfulness of being in a grave, but the dead feeling of a life that has no meaning. I have family members who only feel like their life is meaningful if they are having a relationship with someone. I felt the same way and still do sometimes, but the word of God teaches me anything, a human relationship will let me down at some point and also that person will die, but the Lord will not do that ever. The Lord loves me so much, that He lived a life keeping all the commandments and then died in my place. The only payment of sin according to scripture is the death of innocent blameless lamb and no animal of the earth could do that. What I come to realize in my personal Bible study is when Jesus died on the cross of slow agonizing death, He told me a horrible sinner, I am sorry Samuel Head for your sins you committed against your Creator. Then I heard Him say, “ But hey it’s okay Samuel, this is all part of My Father’s plan, all you have to do is accept my death for your sins, say that I am Lord and your sins are forgiven. When look at my Savior Creator God on the cross, who has every right to put my existence to a end, say I love you and and I forgive you, my eyes fill up and I cry, cause I know I don’t deserve such grace and mercy from the Son of God or a immortal deity and even as intelligent designer as science would call Him. Dear brothers and sister, it is okay to experience sorrowfulness when you learn just how much the Lord Jesus loves you and I, but one day and that day is soon, our tears will be replaced with laughter forever in the kingdom of God at the feet of our dear Savior Jesus. God bless you all, the Lord loves you and so do I. Samuel Head
Psalm 119:28 My soul weeps because of grief; Strengthen me according to Your word.29 Remove the false way from me, and graciously grant me Your Law. 30 I have chosen the faithful way;I have placed Your judgments before me.