Romans 12:1-2 God is Urging Me

Romans 12:1-2

1 Therefore I urge you, brethren, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies a living and holy sacrifice, acceptable to God, which is your spiritual service of worship. 2 And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect.

My brothers and sisters in Christ, these last few devotionals going through the book of Romans chapter 7 and 8, have been hard on myself. I personally know that I live more for the flesh rather than Spirit. I have been flirting with both desires, and in my public life, I am very spiritual life and i know the Word of God better than most people, and I don’t know why, cause i have not read the whole Bible, but  good bit. My private life, I am led by the flesh and it gets me in trouble sometimes, and I get called a fake man of God, and inside I know I am fake. A couple weeks ago I heard my brother in Christ talk about integrity at my old church. He said, integrity is about what a person does behind closed doors or when they are alone, let me tell you, I don’t have any. I try to live by the Spirit every day and every minute but it’s just too damn hard, to be honest. Sometimes in my relationships, I feel like I am toxic, I feel too needy and if someone shows me attention, I drive them away. But I know my Lord loves me, and He knows me better then myself. The Word of God says if i let go of myself, He will give me what i really need.

Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding.6 In all your ways acknowledge Him,And He will make your paths straight.

True worship is letting go of hundred percent 100% of myself, and if i keep 35% or 50% or even 95% to myself, i truly don’t love the Lord. In the Old Testament when someone sin, a clean animal was required for a sacrifice and a worship of God. But the Word of God says He delight in obedience or following Him rather than animal sacrifice.

Psalm 51:16 For You do not delight in sacrifice, otherwise I would give it; You are not pleased with burnt offering.The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; A broken and a contrite heart, O God, You will not despise.

I currently feel broken and I said yesterday I might take a break from sending devotionals and go back to sending simple Bible verses, but I will let my Lord direct me. I know in my spirit I wanna be acceptable by God, I just don’t know sometime, I feel like Paul,

Romans 7:24 Wretched man that I am! Who will set me free from the body of this death?

 I would like to thank my Mint Hill Community SDA Church family, & other church families in the Charlotte area, you all have shown me kindness. I will have leave for a while, but i will continue to send  devotional as long and s i can, I love you all.Thanks for allowing me to send you scriptures devotional, even when I didn’t even ask you for permission to send them. God bless you all, the Lord Jesus you and so do I. Samuel H.

Hosea 6:6 For I delight in loyalty rather than sacrifice, And in the knowledge of God rather than burnt offerings.